Sometimes it’s little by little, to the point that you hardly notice. Other times, it hits all at once. Life happens, every day all day, and feeling like you have so little control over it is pretty frustrating.
This week’s thoughts are a bit of a departure from my usual subject matter. There’s a lot happening, just this week actually, that even as an experienced person in dealing with things, I’m struggling to sort through and compartmentalize.
I’m proud of how I’ve learned to handle myself, despite wanting to do or say the exact opposite. It hasn’t been an easy lesson to absorb, and by no means do I think I’ve mastered the art. So many things I mutter to myself, are just tired old cliches, but they’re rooted in truth. This too shall pass, pick your battles, and there’s a greater plan for you. All offer only limited comfort, but are no less accurate.
I’ll be 40 this year. The age doesn’t bother me. Am I where I thought I’d be at 40? That’s hard to answer because I honestly never gave it a lot of thought. In some ways, I’ve done more than I ever thought, and in others, I feel like I have so much more to do. I suppose what I’m describing is fairly average. It feels like I’ve made a few small differences over the years, I’m proud of that. It also feels like life is just getting warmed up.
I started this blog for a couple of reasons. One, to maintain a connection to the horse world, when I was (still am) lacking in actually being a physical horse owner. Two, was to put my writing skills on display in the hopes that they would eventually pass under the right set of eyes, leading to a promising writing career. While that elusive phone call has yet to be received, I remain hopeful.
In my personal life, it’s equally as balanced in being good with where I am, and looking forward to where I’ll be. My “squad” is small and tightly knit. I’m loved and cherished. It’s all good.
Sometimes life feels more like a reality show, which admittedly I’m a fan of many. There are days when I know we all could say, “you can’t make this shit up!” The tv show on CBS called, “Life in Pieces” is a favorite in our home. If you’re familiar, it’s broken out into four segments every episode, each with a name that seems silly when you see the title (Best-Waxing-Grocery-Rental, anyone?), but it all ties together.
Thinking along those lines, what would I call this week’s episode? Upset-Reprieve-Resume-Recover? Stay tuned!